Sick and tired.

Hi blogger! Finally took the energy to use my laptop after so long. During the past 3 months(when I stopped blogging), many things happened.

To start off with, I'm going to show you a picture of my favourite lesbian partner!❤❤❤

She is my best friend and so called the only female friend I trust the most. After so many things that happened, I realized some things. The "friend" that I trusted, turns out to be the one that leak out secrets. Once again, I'm being too naive. I am upset not because of her telling others my secret, but upset in the changes in her. People change for the better, but she change for the worse.

I am like so tired of people. So tired to be the one taking the initiative to talk to someone first. So tired to care about my surroundings. So tired to care about what others dislike about me. So tired to try.

I'M JUST SO TIRED.

People dislike me right after they heard something bad about me. And why is that so? Why can't you just get to know me more and realize what they say are false? I mean if its true, then you have the rights to dislike me. If not, why?!?!?!?!?!! I don't understand.

People come and go and I already saw this coming. It happens so frequently that I find it normal when people does that. So when they are planning to leave, I just open the door and hahaha let them leave.

I just get so depressed at the same thing over and over again. I don't know why this keeps on happening to me. Continuously telling myself it doesn't matter, but actually, it matters a lot.

I'm all smiles on the outside, but inside I'm like :( :( :(. I really hope I'll be able to smile properly one day. My daily life is just so shitty. Shitty life cycle keeps on repeating itself. WHAT A LIFELESS GIRL.

Shall wait for another month and see what will happen next. Hopefully things may turn out good?

*finger cross*