Badmouthing.

I've come to understand this recently.. It is almost impossible to not badmouth about somebody. Even if its your good friend. We are humans, we get angry too. We all have to vent our anger. The feeling of keeping everything inside you is just so unbearable......it might tear ourself apart anytime. 

People is a scary living thing. E.g. if I were to vent my anger, badmouth about someone to somebody, that 'somebody' will degrade me from being a "girl" to a "bitch". Not only that, that 'somebody' will tell 'someone'(the one that I badmouthed about) what I said. 

This happens so frequently that everyone thinks that it is normal to do so. I know it is a bad thing to badmouth about someone. But seriously, name me someone who don't. I believe everyone needs to vent. Keeping all the anger and sadness within you is just crazy.

The thing that frustrates me the most is when I vent to somebody. Somehow, that somebody will make use of this chance and pull me down. Telling what I said to everyone, and people start judging me. 

To be honest, I was once like that too. I get a slight tangy feeling of happiness(so pathetic.) But after experiencing it myself, I got a chance to taste the pain.

Idk man I just feel so irritated over "life". I think "life" have no meaning to me at all.